Sometimes I think that I put too much pressure on myself style wise. I’ve set such a precedence that I feel flat and bland wearing something that’s not different or outrageous.
I don’t like this. I like to be able to wear what I feel like when I feel like it. And when it’s 10:30pm and you’ve worn everything in your wardrobe in every conceivable combination and you’re tired and your eye is doing a weird bloom thing and none of your clothes resemble the sweet ass stuff in the Swinging 60’s Fashion Style book that Sophie got you for your birthday (thanks Sophie), well sometimes you just wanna pull something together for the morning and not worry about it.
Not that this is a bad outfit. It’s just fine. I like the colours and it’s not a combination that I’ve tried before. This cardigan is perfect for the current weather and I almost feel like a regular office worker. And therein lays the problem. The only time I seem to feel comfortable in “office wear” is if it’s exaggerated, or I’ve created a story behind it. I don’t have a story behind this one. I don’t feel like a librarian, an equestrian teacher or an old school journalist.
Have I styled myself into a corner? Am I that girl now? Something I’ve always loved about my style is that it’s indefinable and can change dramatically from day to day. Maybe I’ve just forgotten that about myself.
Cardigan: Witchery
Top: Target
Skirt: Was Mum’s
Shoes: Rubi
I think I know what you're talking about. When I was at my first office job, every morning getting dressed, it was like, "This is not my life. This is not my life!" I dealt with that feeling by basically wearing corporate black, in mourning for the lost creativity. Another way to deal with it would be to invent alternate identities, today I'm a librarian, tomorrow I'm a candy shop owner ;) . A third way to deal with it is to recognize that the company hired you. There is something about who you are that is just right. Therefore you can be yourself, and as long as you're not wearing a bathing suit, pretty do just fine. Today yourself was in a chilled out boho mood. It's cool. Tomorrow you might feel a different way.
ReplyDeleteThanks for the kind words hon.
ReplyDeleteIt really doesn't have so much to do with work. I'm confortable with wearing whatever I want there. It's more that I feel that I've set a certain standard for myself and wearing something "regular" can be disappointing.
I'm so used to being a "character" every day that it's weird when there is no character.